hi blogy, i'm not in a good mood today. many things happened in a sudden and i'm just a nothing to everyone. isn't it? what am i? who am i? what position am i? ... where am i? after the things happened, there was someone appeared in my mind that i wanted to cry on but i dont think that person is free for me to talk.. there's no one to hold when i'm down, why? everyone said i was so famous, many friends but there's no friend when i'm in a trouble when i need someone. i dont need anyone anymore. just myself. MY OWN. sometimes, i feel like leaving the world just like this but that's only for the stupidest, lifeless person to do that. i'm a impatient person but i waited for someone's call for few hours. who the person called if they have no friends no partner no family?  all alone to her way. i'm the person that scared to be alone, walk alone, wait alone. i scared and ignore the word 'alone' but now there's no choice for me. all ran away no one will stay just like how last time was.



what to do if you needs someone but actually there's no one?
i'm angry but dont know how to vent. 
i couldn't stop my tears whenever i think of you and all.
bye.