hi, today you are not going to listen to rubbish, it's about life. :) see, sometimes i dont understand what's human thinking, well im one of them too. so, means i dont understand well about myself. when things goes bad or worst, human will blame all on god. yes, it's true. i did the same thing too. :) i think god treat us unfair but not everyone. human is being selfish, fear, humble and all, that's what we called human being. sometimes, human is being so contradiction, they love each others, there's still a chance to be back together but they dont want. is it your reputation is more important than your loved one? sometimes, i just hope that time can reverse back to the pass, so now im still texting with him.everything can change just in a short time like few days. im getting confused, the one i known as a boyfriend last time has became a stranger to me now. well, they will sweet talk with you from the beginning of the love trap starts, after you fell into it, they are gonna kill your heart just a word break up. from the very first, you know them as a good boyfriend, lovely boyfriend, considerate boyfriend and all about the advantage of them after you fell deeply into the trap, you confused seriously confused. he's not with you into the trap, he's outside of the trap looking at you starring at you fall into the trap. i wonder how they do that when someone they  made them fall into the trap and some more kill their heart?im blaming god, how can you treat us like this and the others is standing safety out there? luckily you didnt take my life away that day, luckily im a smart person. im one of them that fell into the trap, there's no staircase, rope or something that can pull me up from the deeply trap. so the only thing i can go is.. wait for the hope wait for the sun rise wait for him to pull me up. im not a patient person but i got to be the one. i got no choice. so at the same time when im waiting, im gonna change my inner, my organ, my heart and slowly cure. being strong is everyone responsibility so i have to responsible for my responsibility. yes, everyone outside is talking about me, saying that im stupid. but do you understand why and how? never try never know, once you try then you know. and here, im sure that everyone will STEP OR GO OVER THIS situation in their life. our life, there's only the 30% that we have to be suffer. the another 70% you are so gonna enjoy it. so just the 30% after you fully fill it the 30% you are free. im trying my hard to do my best now. :) im gonna change my attitude, it's not only because of him, it's for myself too. :) i'll be right here waiting for you, never give up. never never and never. i dont care whose wrong now, the problem is i need you. im putting all at a side now. study while waiting. :) im proofing to you that I CAN DO IT. a thousand million times i failed worth for a touched. i failed a few times and so im not going to give up, im continuing to my way. i think you are the happiest person in the who world because you are the only person that i willing to do that.