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had an audition yesterday with my buddies, yiling, wongkee, shee wen, ju yen. the title of song is 'right here waiting' by richard. i feel so sorry that i have sang the wrong part. seriously, im sorry. sorry so sorry peoples.. i forgotten the lyrics like SUDDENLY. i held the mic tightly, hand trembling. i wanted to do the best but i did the worst. the judge there even called me to calm down. im sorry people, im really sorry.

after i reached home, YOU were the first person i texted and wanted to share with but YOU disappointed me. YOU were the one who bring me a hope, YOU were the one who throw it away. YOU called me to love you more, YOU called me to let you go. what do YOU wants actually? playing someone's heart is no good. :)
my heart not feeling good when i replied him 'okay la, chat next time when you feel like. :D' a fake smile that i have sent to him. guys, IMAGINE and guess what did he send me back. just a word 'kay' and im speechless. i found out that he got more topic to chat with others than me. when i went to bed, lying on my bed, i was thinking him then i get up, took my phone and texted him 'goodnight, dont stay too late later your panda eyes came out then no girls like you hahaha. :D' he replied 'hahaha my panda eyes already so obvious but still got many girls like me. goodnight and sleep tight' the time when i received that, my hand was trembling, i cant hear my heart beating. okay, continue, i replied him 'haha, yeah. monica only ma' guess what he replied....... '-.- YEA IT'S MONICA' i couldn't stable myself that time, i almost fall down from my bed. hand trembling, lying on my bed, covering my blanket, cried hardly at the same time, my heart broken into pieces.. 'FCUK' THAT I WANTED TO SEND HIM BADLY but my heart called me not to do that. i just figured it out that im really stupid to be a girl like this. after that message, i never reply him back. sometimes, i wish that he was the one who waiting for my reply and not me.